I’ve been living with
diabetes for about 5 years now but its only since I turned 17 that the reality
of it hit. I’ve found it hard to care for my diabetes since diagnosed in 2008,
always up and down having hypos, but it never bothered me. Sounds bad, I know,
but it’s never really stopped me from doing anything so I just lived life like
I was like any other teen. When I turned 17 I applied for my provisional to
start driving only to be rejected after filling out the medical questionnaire.
It wasn’t until that moment, when I opened the letter telling me I have been
rejected that having diabetes hit me. I realised how badly I need it to be
under control. Its amazing how one thing can change someone’s views and make
them realise how serious something is. A few weeks after I got rejected I found
out that my diabetes was affecting more than driving but it was actually
causing internal damage. I was having medical problems due to lack of control
and it really scared me. It was my push to become healthier. I had roughly a
month to gain more control before I went for more tests. I started counting
carbohydrates like I was meant to, giving myself the correct medication and
eating healthier. I went back to the hospital after a month to find that I was
getting better, not fully but I was improving. I was so relieved I cried.
Not having anyone who
really understands what its like living with diabetes makes it harder. I just
wanted to keep it a secret and do what everyone else did. It wasn’t until I
found out the damage it was causing that I realised I cant do what everyone
else does. I’m going to be different that’s what comes with being diabetic.
People try to understand, they try and learn about it but what you learn from
books is different from what you learn through experience. I don’t mind when
people ask me about it cause at least it shows that they care, makes me feel
special. I dislike it when people think they know, think that they understand
when they don’t. When they have a hypo then I’ll let them pretend to understand.
Just like me people don’t actually understand the reality and the seriousness
of diabetes until something happens.
When I had my first
hypo it scared everyone in my family, especially me. I understand how scared my
family get when I have them so I understand why they are very protective. Why
they stop me from eating and doing things I shouldn’t. As much as it annoys me
I need them to be able to say no. I’ll be going to university next September,
scary thought. I’ll be living away from my parents which scares me as one I’ve
never been away from them for that long, and two I’m scared about my diabetes.
I’m worried about how I’m going to be able to control it by myself. I have a
year to sort it out. I’m going to get it under control, I’m going to learn to
drive and I’m going to university.
If you too are
suffering from diabetes or want to know more about it then follow my blog:
DiaryofaDiabetic2013.blogspot.co.uk. I wrote this in hope that people will
realise the seriousness of medical problems, and people wont be as idiotic as
me and wont mistreat their medication, in hope that people will learn from my
mistakes and will look after themselves properly.
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